Different not less

I don’t want your empathy

I don’t need your sympathy

All I want is the space to be me

I certainly don’t need to be judged

Labelled, and pigeon-holed because

I can’t do what you can

I don’t feel the need to

conform to society’s boxes

I let boundaries blur

And distances fade

I don’t have what you do

But that doesn’t make me

Any lesser than you

I may be different

But I am no less

I just see the world

Through different lenses

I get enraptured in the detail

I find beauty in the mundane

I have the power to

Conquer my pain

I love sans conditions

and I give without expecting

I happen to remember

All you forget

I can remember routes

You don’t even know yet

Just because I can’t

Put my emotions in words

Just doesn’t mean I feel

Any less than you

I am not eccentric

I just refuse to walk

The trodden road

And follow your rules

I’d rather weave

A world of my own

And make my own rules

resilience

Confront your chaos

Dance with your demons

Soak in the shades of solitude

And longing

Wallow in a pool of self-pity

Drown in the ocean of endless tears

Only to discover you don’t drown at all

It’s a mere dip, a mere trough, a detour

Your buoyant soul can fight it endlessly

Soak all you want

Light is only one battle away

placid waters

Don’t let the placid waters hoodwink you

Into believing she is an equable ocean

She brews a raging storm in her soul

She is the blizzard that can ensnare

She’ll be a sinuous river

If you let her flow

The demons in our closets…


We’re all wrestling the monsters of our own making.

The wounds that define us.

The demons that rear their ugly head.

Threatening to swallow us in their womb.

What is it we won’t do to evade them?

Just about anything not to confront them.

Fill the voids with meaningless banter.

Drown the screams in a busy din.

Seek solace in any passion or addiction

Fill our searing soul’s hunger with food

Punctuate our aches in the arms

Of retail therapy and coffee

All of these are nothing

But temporary refuges.

With the touch of the traces of time

These monsters become home for us.

Another year slips by

End of the year is for celebrations of a year gone by as well as some stock taking and reminiscing about lessons etched in the echelons of memory.

They say you should look ahead, but how can you ever do that without looking back, ruminating of the days gone by and drawing the right kind of lessons..

1) You never quite have it all. There’s always room for more. What eventually matters is learning to remain content as long as the basics are in place.

2) To win some battles you’ve got to lose all you’ve got. The first step is to conquer the insurmountable walls of our ego.

3) No one can give unconditionally all relationships personal and professional just reflect and echo what we give them.

4) With time our inner circle will shrink only to a few people who’ll stand by us through thick and thin. But even when no one’s standing you’ve got to walk a mile or two alone.

5) Time and space can heal anything.

6) Everyone is struggling with something or the other. Life isn’t a bed of roses for anyone. Be kind to yourself, be empathetic towards others, just makes the roller coaster ride called life easier.

7) Acceptance is the key to sailing through. Acceptance of the lows and the highs instead of battling it out in our minds helps us keep our sanity when life is tough.

8) Steer clear of all toxicity in  your relationships, your job and nip negativity in the bud.

9) Invest in the future: spend time with yourself,children, make time to meditate,read.

10) Disconnect from social media and technology and connect with yourself through anything that gives you joy and peace.

I might keep going back to this list as a reminder of how I would want to spend this year, what is on your list of reflections?

The darkest moments

The demons we wrestle

the darkness that envelops us

Our loneliest days

our solitary journeys

the days when

we’re at the end

of the rope

these moments enrich us more

than we’ll ever hope

they happen for a purpose

they smoothen the jagged edges

of our souls

and make us feel fallible,

human and whole..