Battling the lockdown blues

As the world encounters an invisible battle

We have been forced to remember allthat we ached to forget

While love and compassion flows

There are tears intertwined with nervous laughter

As we come together to fight a microcosm

We also battle a never known before anxiety

A miniscule virus has the mightiest warriors on their knees

Even as our bodies fight the fear of it

Our minds seem to battle their own fiends

All that we brushed under the proverbial carpet

Is overflowing from the crevices of our homes

There’s no noise and din

To drown our solitary songs

Suddenly there are no closets

To hide all our demons

All our fear and battles

Are raging afresh

All that we garbed under the shadows of busyness

Is for everyone to see

Even as we cover our faces with masks

To protect ourselves

Our masks of false bravado have fallen off

Unmasking the vulnerable hearts and raw emotions we feel

Leaving us to find comfort

In the most uncomfortable recesses of

our overwhelmed minds

We are the same

Beneath those wispy veneers we

Are all the same

The same kindred spirits

The same bittersweet suffering souls

The same festering fears

The same inky insecurities

The same neurotic obsessions

We all have the same wounds

Yet instead of walking in

Each other’s shoes

We choose to tread on

Each other’s toes

And build walls around

Our vulnerable souls

Instead of building bridges.  

Different not less

I don’t want your empathy

I don’t need your sympathy

All I want is the space to be me

I certainly don’t need to be judged

Labelled, and pigeon-holed because

I can’t do what you can

I don’t feel the need to

conform to society’s boxes

I let boundaries blur

And distances fade

I don’t have what you do

But that doesn’t make me

Any lesser than you

I may be different

But I am no less

I just see the world

Through different lenses

I get enraptured in the detail

I find beauty in the mundane

I have the power to

Conquer my pain

I love sans conditions

and I give without expecting

I happen to remember

All you forget

I can remember routes

You don’t even know yet

Just because I can’t

Put my emotions in words

Just doesn’t mean I feel

Any less than you

I am not eccentric

I just refuse to walk

The trodden road

And follow your rules

I’d rather weave

A world of my own

And make my own rules

resilience

Confront your chaos

Dance with your demons

Soak in the shades of solitude

And longing

Wallow in a pool of self-pity

Drown in the ocean of endless tears

Only to discover you don’t drown at all

It’s a mere dip, a mere trough, a detour

Your buoyant soul can fight it endlessly

Soak all you want

Light is only one battle away

placid waters

Don’t let the placid waters hoodwink you

Into believing she is an equable ocean

She brews a raging storm in her soul

She is the blizzard that can ensnare

She’ll be a sinuous river

If you let her flow